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The Silence of the Lamb

When I was younger, I remember as a kid always trying to be in conversation with older men. Even as I got older, I tried to dialogue on the level with men who were bigger and more successful than me. Other time tried to explain myself to women what I'm thinking and going through. Here's the thing with women; they'll never be men.


Even God is a person we can't question. He's always right. But we can pray to and no answer comes back. Least, not verbally. That's not conversation.


Being ignored is a terrible thing, and I find more and more that the frustration of men today is that they don't get heard. When i hear motherfuckers talk masculine women, alot of it has to do with a woman directing and talking over them. If they lead, their orders are often questioned, if they argue, the woman ramps up her emotions and throws a tantrum or shuts down completely.


Here's the thing: we can't say why someone is ignoring us or even mad at us when we speak. There were times my father was wrong about something, and I was right and my voice was silenced. I went unheard. I would listen to women talk for hours, then if I said something, she would forget it or interrupt it. And yeah, that triggered a rage and frustration that was serious.


If you sit around waiting for the right turn to talk or the right moment or even the right person. Talking is not about approval or even being heard anymore. It's not about a million mfs on YouTube loving everything you stand for and say. You get caught up in that you gonna be like these women who curate their whole lives and try to make sure everyone likes what they have to say. A man can't worry about popularity.


He has to talk to himself. He has to show respect with himself. He's got to have his own back and he's got to make sure the voice is his head is the loudest and clearest and most powerful.


But sometimes, shit just needs said. I've always liked that about Malcolm X; he didn't care to be hated. Things are wrong with America and it's our American right to speak up about it. IT cost Malcolm his life; but what would his life been worth if he had been a quiet mouse who was ignored everywhere?


Sometimes that trampled soul, that quiet person, that ignored person needs to say something whether or not the popular or powerful like it. Whether or not that women is gonna fuck you or if she's going to leave on a date. If she wants a dinner date, and you don't move that way, you can do right by her or do right by you. Even if you got some pussy, it was at the cost of your rule and the cost of money you did not want to pay.


One of the reasons I started this website it's because I'm tired of other people having control over my voice. If you talk on YouTube, it's at the YouTube personalities discretion whether or not it deserves to be said. If you go on somebody else's social media platform, you're at the risk of moderators or other people policing your content. Truth be told, there probably is no place in the Internet world where you're gonna be completely free to say whatever you want to say. But no one has the right to threaten you with leaving or blocking or ignoring you because you wanted to express an honest and decent opinion. This doesn’t include homophobia or racism or sexism but so often people want your cooperation. They want your praise and your attention and they want your voice to sound like theirs and agree with theirs. When you're agreeable, sometimes other people accept you but they'll always accept you at a level that's lower than them. And you're not them. I am me and my voice sounds completely different than anyone else’s because I know what's in my brain. No one has a right to tell me the thoughts in my brain aren't worth being heard.


Don't be rude; don't seek to inflict pain, that's emotional and feminine. But if you got some shit to say, I'd rather my soul not die out a quiet candle than offend the whole of the universe. There's always one motherfucker looking at shit a new way. They hate him at first, ten years later, everyone else takes credit. People are weak. People are jealous and emotional. People want to hog all the attention. They will come to silence you.


I'm not saying be the opposite of a lamb. Don't be a wolf. A wolf is easily killed and is beset by limitations. Be the monster they can't control. Sometimes shit needs said. Not "down with the blacks" or corny hateful shit. But sometimes we need to stand and say "i"m not a piece of shit and I won't be treated like one." "I will not play the limp leaf to get some pussy." "I will be listened to or you will not be listened to by me."


Not many are going to say that you're amazing or interesting or they approve of you. Two ears and one mouth, they say. And yet we follow and love and adore people who talk alot and say they listen to us. If you've got something to say, that's better than money. That's coming from you.


A popular phrase is for someone to tell someone else to "shut the fuck up." That's cool, if that person is talking or you're being crazy or rude. If that person disagrees with you and that's the reason, that's a them problem. That don't mean I have to stop talking. It means they need to stop listening. A lot of times here come the threats, one way or another. That's for you to decide how badly you need what they threaten. Something like pussy or the friendship or popularity or their permission to speak, fuck that. But if you getting told to shut the fuck up all the time; that person don't care about you. Sometimes these older men or mentors or even women. they just want their voice to be the only one in the room. That's not respect. I'll get to being interrupted one day; but that's heavy disrespect.


But a squelched quiet voice is a squelched spirit. A mumbling man chooses to be unheard. The man who looks away don't like what he sees in his own eyes. No one likes a powerful voice. But a lot of people fear one. So they want to stow it away. The silent? They have already tucked themselves away for someone else to speak. Fuck that.


Be loud. Be opinionated, be right. Don't get fired, don't ask some girl to fuck right away, don't be rude. Don't scream at a cop and tell the bill collector the system is for sheep. But fuck being silent for the small voices and small minds with big bullhorns. Fuck not being able to talk in your relationships, or to your parents, or being the quiet one among your friends.


Talk that talk. We always running on about mouthpiece, if talking ain't going on in your brain and being pushed out in the world, your words won't matter. And that's like saying you don't matter.


Question of the day: What's your conversational style? What kind of people do you like talking to? What's the three most interesting things about you? How can make optimize your voice and make sure you coming across clear?




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